Monday, March 24, 2014

Eczema, apple cider vinegar, and some tough realizations.

I cannot overcome this eczema/folliculitis combo with my skin!! Having one of these conditions is bad enough, but both of them is just ridiculous! The tsw symptoms are really crimping my lifestyle at the moment. My face is getting back to its bad levels it was prior to MW. Insane flaking, more redness, and the old sores are coming back. This is really disappointing. When I stopped using moisturizers my skin dried out and the sores healed up very quickly. The oozing stopped within 3 days! Someone on ITSAN recommended apple cider vinegar (acv) applied topically to help me with my bacteria problem with my skin. I don't want to use antibiotics forever to help with my eczema yet if I don't I just get really red, bumpy and itchy all over my body. So I started using acv, and you know what? It actually worked! I can tell within a day of using acv it helps my wrists, hands, arms, and legs look better. It stings, but it seems to work. However................ despite the initial acv success, the last few weeks my skin kept getting worse and worse. UGH!!!!! (I'm mentally screaming right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Fine, I'll go back on some antibiotics (minocycline) to help get me under control while I've got some important stuff coming up. Well guess what my skin had to say about that? A big "screw you". Yea, the bumps got better (folliculitis), and the eczema is slowly getting better (it seems slower than before, and this is not good, i hope i'm not becoming resistant to this antibiotic), but i'm still really shitty and I don't know what to do. I just called in sick from work because I look like a skin graph patient on my face. Maybe the acv is ok for my body, but not on my face. For some reason my face just hates anything on it. Anything. Even before I started tsw the steroids quit working on my face. Maybe it wanted more potent ones. Maybe it has to due with me using hydrocortisone cream on my face for 25 years. Yea, maybe that has something to do with that. 21 months into TSW and nothing to show except that I realize that I'm f'd, and I don't know if I will ever be normal. I don't want to be perfect, I just want to be normal. I don't need perfect skin, just somewhat normal skin. That last doc said my eczema was the worst he's ever seen. I don't want to be that guy anymore. I've always been that guy and it has cost me a lot, even though I've been able to overcome it in some respects. I can't imagine how bad my life would be if I lived in another country where this kind of stuff would exclude you from the job market. I'm lucky and I'm unlucky. I've over it. Please end soon!