Monday, April 22, 2013

Stressed to the max!

I've only gotten worse since I've gone off cyclo. It's now 4am and I just took a shower because I was itching to much and couldn't sleep. I've only slept 3-4 hrs the last 4 days and I'm finding going to work is proving to be almost completely unbearable. Especially when my work days turn into 12 hour days. In addition to insomnia, redness, shedding, and crazy itching, my legs and feet have started to swell and rash up more. I don't know what I'm going to do. I am definitely at a low point. I feel lost, sad, tired, disgusting, and fed up. I think I may try and get some time off work in May if this madness continues. I just want to lay on the couch all day, but my schedule has been very busy and i'm forcing myself to get outside the house. Im just tired.

Monday, April 8, 2013

1 month off cyclo

So it's been 1 month since I quit using cyclo, and I'm right back to where I was before I started using it (unfortunately). Right now it's 3am and I can't sleep, so I decided to make a new post. I don't know if cyclo postponed the healing process or not, I'll just have to wait and see how long my recovery takes and then make an educated guess. But basically, I cannot get to sleep usually until sometime between 4:30am to 8am. If I can sleep until noon I'll be really happy about that! The other night my face was oozing really bad, and for the last week I've been waking up in a puddle of sweat. I'm taking about 3 hot showers a day, as this really helps me to stop itching for a while. I'm itching and shedding like a crazy man, and positioned the sweeper near by for its hourly usage. My torso, neck, and ears are raw, oozy, and flaking a lot. My legs got really red the other night which was the first time that happened, but their back to their normal red now. I'm just really miserable. I'm using vaseline everywhere to help with the burn and itch. Today was especially tough, but my wife made me get out of the house and walk a little, as well as go to the grocery store. It hurt, but it's always good to get some fresh air and sun. I really hope I'm one of those people who can get breaks from the withdraw process, but so far I've been flaring every day. I think I'm going to try and find some shea butter tomorrow because I keep reading positive reviews on it. I do use coconut oil sometimes, but it also can make me really itchy as well. Tonight the coconut oil provided much needed relief during an itching fit. It's so hard to stay positive during bad days. I'm taking ibuprofen, vitamin d3, fish oil, and anti inflammatory supplements daily. Ugh. If I could turn back time.